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i got a little worried today. 

it was like an hour ago that I realized I had 

had a smile on my face for the last  TWELVE hours 

straight. (well minus the hour that my dad and I were running SEVEN miles this morning. I doubt I had a smile on my face then. ) 

why did this worry me?

Because I didn't hang out with Drew at all today. 

umm. i kind of panicked that I had one of the best saturdays I had had in a LONG time and didn't see my future husband even for ONE second. Is that bad? Was my marriage doomed? Would I never be happy again after August 18th? Was I making the wrong decision if I had such a great day without him?

i should have been miserable and spending all day thinking about how much i missed him....

uh-oh.

considering he had samoa ice-cream in his freezer (i kid, i kid :) I came over to his house and found myself telling him all about my day. Then I got a little sheepish and looked down at the ground. 

"Do you think it's bad I had such a great day without you? is that like a bad sign for our relationship?"

I think I was scared of his answer. What was he gonna say?

I looked up and he smiled at me and said, " No! That makes me happy you had such a good day! I just feel bad for you after August 18th!" :) 

it was so weird. he was genuinely HAPPY to hear about my fun day. he asked questions and I remember things that I had come across today that I couldn't wait to tell him about. He was happy FOR me, not jealous or sad or irritated that I didn't need him in the last 10 hours to be in a good mood. 

Drew doesn't DEFINE me, I am not nothing without him. 

In fact, I am a perfectly capable young woman whose life has changed for the BETTER because of the unconditional love from him for the stuff that makes me ME. :) 

i was thinking about all the fun stuff I did today. and it all connected back to him in some way or another. and that my friends, is what I consider l o v e. 

"and he did something to me that I can't quite explain with words, he took me to a new place, 

he introduced me to myself. "

my day?

 busted out the beach towels, beach party dinner, went to breakfast, hung out with my sister, ran wedding errands...

he had a good day too, perhaps it was a coincidence his good day included NOT running wedding errands and doing wedding crafts? hmm... :)