Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Monday, October 29, 2012

as of late:

some things I have been loving these last few days in October:

reminiscing about getting engaged to this hottie LAST october. and so0o happy for all my friends who have gotten engaged recently. this seems like a popular time of year to pop the question :)




pumpkin cupcakes. (umm... they did NOT turn out like the pinterest ones? story of my life. :)


 cozy breakfasts. 
I have never been a big breakfast eater on the weekends. I like to stick to my weekly staples of oatmeal or kashi or something. (cuz heaven forbid we know what happens when I strive off of my "plan")
oh man. not any longer. the waffle maker is one of the best things in the entire world.  



so maybe they were supposed to be "salted caramel bars."

welp. I forgot the salt. 

soooo caramel bars anyone?

SOOOOOOO rich but seriously DELICIOUS!!!!

perhaps due to the pound of butter or heavy whipping cream? you must make them. 

and since we seem to be on the food theme, let's end it with another recipe, shall we? 

we had my parents over for din last week and we made pulled pork sandwiches. 

in the crock pot. 

put the pork tenderloin in the crockpot. 
pour over a can of rootbeer.
set on low for six hours. 

shred pork and mix in BBQ sauce. 

and then eat your pulled pork sandwich for dinner. 
and a caramel bar for dessert.
and then a cupcake for a midnight snack because it is taunting you. 
and then lie to the cute guy you got engaged to last year when he asks if you ate that cupcake in bed.

hehe. ;) 

Sunday, October 28, 2012

we all think that we should have a specific hand of cards that we were dealt.

Maybe a full house, or a flush or whatever gets lots of points in poker?

One card might be an amazing, fulfilling career that ALSO brings home major bacon. Another card? A smoking hot husband/wife and gorgeous, talented, water-polo playing children. You should own a house, have it furnished like Pottery Barn in every room, and go to Hawaii for vacation once a year, with every third year being a family trip to Italy. 

that's what your "supposed" to have.

By 18, you have a nice car, have gotten into the best sorority and have daddy's credit card. 

25? The career of your dreams, a well-to-do boyfriend who wants to take you ring shopping. 

Late twenties? Buy that house, that double stroller and everything else that we "should" have. 

I believe in God. I try to live a life that honors him, so God should give me that perfect hand of cards that society and He says I should have. Right? Right?????

At church we had an awesome talk about how there comes a point in our lives when we have to come to terms with the ACTUAL hand God dealt us.

Not the hand we THINK we deserve or that our friends think we have.

If you are anything like me, you are missing a couple of those key cards. Actually... I would bet money that most of us don't have that royal flush. 

and for the first time in my ENTIRE life, I think I am starting to realize that's okay.

 and a crucial step of being okay with what God gave us? Accepting what he didn't. 

:) 

Saturday, October 27, 2012

mail time

 when you come in the back door we have a long counter space with cabinets under it. I suppose kinda like an entry way? even though that area is also the dining room/part of the laundry room.

this place QUICKLY became a catch-all for keys, groceries, purses, wallets... DQ blizzard cups... you get the picture... :)

which is all fine and dandy...

but then add to that pile all the junk mail and bills and it was really stressing me out. It was like the first thing you see when you come in the back door and it always just immediately agitated me when I walked in the door, reminding me of bills to pay etc.

i was doing some research about cute entry ways, and realized that while I love our little house, there was no way to make this area SUPER cute, so I just decided to go with practical.


some cute inspiration from pinterest.



love these. but considering we don't have kids and our don't live in our "home" home, I didn't want to spend too much time and money. 

so i decided to roll with this type of idea. 


so i kinda tried. 

then added two of our wedding centerpiece boxes to hold bills to pay and then random mail. 

i started by meal planning for the week on the chalk board. 

BUUUUUT, the chalk will NOT ERASE! like seriously. there are 5 weeks of Monday night dinners peeking through on this silly board. (and we tend to have tacos a lot on Mondays apparently?)

so for the meantime, I have tried to cover it up with some stickable accessories. 

still a work in progress, buuuut it is SO nice to have a place or our mail. 

still working on the calendar part and where to write our weekly schedule. any ideas??!







Wednesday, October 24, 2012

perspective

i am sooo cozy right now.

i woke up early with drew, watched some good ole ESPN (eye roll) and then when he left for work I changed the channel to the news. I am curled up in my robe and my fuzzy blanket in front of the fire. I have been surfing pinterest and slowly eating my breakfast.

i really should get in the shower. i really should go make our bed. i really should unload the dishwasher.  but i don't wanna.

i don't wanna go to work today. i just want to sit in front of the fire and eat my salted caramel bars (i'll post that recipe soon) and cherry coke and watch The Office on-demand all day. is that really that much to ask for? i sure don't think so.

i have felt this way all week pretty much. i can blame the change in weather and the early darkness. :(

i was talking to a client at work yesterday and asked her if she had to go back to work after she left her appointment. She said she didn't and I replied with something like, "really? that's nice! i'm jealous!"

her response to my remark?

"it's not nice if you don't have a job to go back to."

whooops.

once again, foot in mouth Lindsay. I felt my face turn bright red and I just felt sooo selfish and unappreciative of all that I have.

I sure bet I would feel different about hopping in the shower and getting ready for work if I didn't have money in my bank account.

so as much as I want to curl up on the couch and tune into the Today show, I am going to get up and get ready for the day. Not only that, but try to with a smile on my face. :)

here goes nothing. :)


Monday, October 22, 2012

“To have faith in Christ means, of course, trying to do all that He says. 

There would be no sense in saying you trusted a person if you would not take his advice. Thus if you have really handed yourself over to Him, it must follow that you are trying to obey Him. 

But trying in a new way, a less worried way. 

Not doing these things in order to be saved, but because He has begun to save you already. 

Not hoping to get to Heaven as a reward for your actions, but inevitably wanting to act in a certain way because a first faint gleam of Heaven is already inside you.” 


 C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity


Sunday, October 21, 2012


this weekend went way too fast. :(


we had our first little family "party" aka my dad and sister came over while my mom was grocery shopping to watch some of the Husky game. i think we need more chairs... and maybe a lamp?

the precious Mowry family invited us to go to the pumpkin patch with them.

ummm gorgeous family award or what?





there were sooooo many cute kiddos at hte pumpkin patch but this little one was by far the cutest ;)



i am a little afraid. i left for the pumpkin patch with hair like this...



and apparently it poofed like this???? AHHHHH. not so sure about my short hair yet. sooo many layers and i think if it gets wind blowed it turns into a poof-ball!!!!!!! helllooooo middle school?

helppppp


ohh and we ran into sister and T at the pumpkin patch :) so happy they came up from seattle for the weekend. 



end the weekend with a workout and a trip to the mexican restaurant for dinna?

bring it on monday. :)

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

we survived

so don't worry, this blog will not be a place where I air out all of our "dirty laundry" but I also want to be real and this is a part of my life :)

i think drew and i had our first "married" fight. 

i think it was about how the TV is dedicated to football thursday night, all day saturday, all day sunday and monday. :)

is it really that much to ask to go to the pumpkin patch?

then it turned into how drew cooks a lot of the time and i don't like to wash dishes. wet food in the drain reaaaaaalllly grosses me out. so sue me :) 

so maybe drew cooks a lot? he associates that with me being a bad cook. ruuuuude :) 
(remember this is my blog, i can tell my side of the story ;)

we had a reallllllly fun weekend, but were both a little tired yesterday aka crabby. 

so i got home from work, drew was already home and we didn't just went about our business not necessarily speaking to each other. 

juvenile, i know. but sometimes that's just how things work out. :)

i had said i was going to cook waffles and bacon for dinner so I started cooking and drew came in and asked if  i wanted any help. 

clearly, i said NO.

i made our Belgian waffles, drew started flipping the bacon and i swooped in and said, "I SAID I DIDN'T NEED HELP."

so off he went to eat his breakfast for dinner.

I ate mine in the dining room, and then before long I notice the house is getting a little foggy, almost hazy. 

and man, oh man did it smell like bacon. 

so i open up the doors, turn the fan on and deal with the bacon grease. 

Drew comes into the kitchen and says, "did you forget to turn off the stove after the bacon was done?"

"NO!" I snapped. "Of course I didn't."

he has a little smile on his face. 

because clearly that is EXACTLY what i did to almost set the house on fire, but yet I am still denying it. 

i look at him again with my "serious face" on, and he still has that cute little smirk on his face. 

how else can i explain that i almost burnt down our house?

as hard as I am trying to keep a straight face, I start smiling. 

and then giggling. 

and then i cannot. stop. laughing. 

so that ended our little "two hour of not-talking thing"

whatever it takes, right?


i was talking to some coworkers and they were talking about how cute it was that we had our first married fight. 

then they started talking about how important it is to have that fight. to learn how to fight. to learn how to make up. 

i had never even thought of that. 

learn how to fight?

The silent-treatment used to be my ultimate fighting method of choice. with my parents, with boyfriends, didn't matter. :) silent treatment was the way to go.

drew and i used to fight like that too, when we were dating. see who caved first. who gave in. 

now? i am realizing it's not about "giving in."

so yeah maybe the first hour of not talking and passing silently in the hallway was fun, i slowly started to realize there was no point. 

it's not about who "wins" the fight.

it's just a bummer it almost took the house burning down to realize it :)

andddd we may or may not have had a good laugh when we woke up this morning and the house STILL smelt like bacon. oooops. :) 

Monday, October 15, 2012

Sunday, October 14, 2012

just another manic monday?

i just wish i could be a wedding photographer and spend my weekends gallivanting around capturing pretty people in pretty places doing special things. 

please?



another example of a godly woman who always wondered who her mr. right would be.

ten months ago these two started dating and look what happened today :)
so excited for the future Mr. and Mrs :) 


do you ever feel like you get punished come Sunday night if you had a REALLY fun weekend?
:( I do.

you know it's going to be a fun Monday when you have to pack all these bags to take out the door at 7AM. :)



i also think i used to think the busier I was, the less time I would have to feel sad. ya know what? i am realizing that is not quite true. busy is good, but i think its time to reevaluate how I am spending all my time so I am not exhauuusstteeeddd when I come home to my cute hubs at night. 


It is not enough to be busy. So are the ants. The question is: What are we busy about? ~ Henry David Thoreau

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Not Moses



so for the first few weeks of being a Mrs., I felt like to be a good wife I had to be around Drew all the time. Like if he was in the living room watching TV, I had to be in the living room too. while yes, it is nice to be in each other's presence and such, I am also realizing that I can still go in a different room, cozy up with a blanket and a book and not have to be observing his every move. :)

so this new found hobby of mine (okay well that makes it sound like my new hobby is being in a different room than Drew, but you get my drift) has got me reading like books are going out of style. which is weird? does that saying still count if you read on your ipad? but anways.

my current book? Mended by Angie Smith. I love her, i love her, i love her. GO GET THIS BOOK.

this story from her book has just been on my heart all week.

Angie was on a roadtrip with her family, and started reading Chasing Francis: A Pilgrim Tale out loud to her husband. this is what she read:

"Do you know the story of Rabbi Zusya?" he asked.
"He was a Chasidic master who lived in the 1700's. 
One day he said, "When I get to the heavenly court,
  God will not ask me, Why weren't you Moses?"
Rather he will ask me, "Why were you not Zusya?"

The man speaking let that thought hang in the air for a moment, then continued.

"Churches should be places where people come to hear the
story of God and to tell their own. That's how we find out
how the two relate. Tell your story with all of its shadows
and fog, so people can understand their own. They want a 
leader who's authentic, someone trying to figure out how to
follow the Lord Jesus in the joy and wreckage of life.
They need you, not Moses, " he said.

Wow.

They need you.


not that perfect lady who can run twice as fast as you on the treadmill at the gym and clearly has NO problem limiting her frozen yogurt after dinner. Not her, ME. me with my "love chub" aka the lovely weight that has climbed onto my hips since getting married. Me and my slooowww pace on the treadmill.
Me.

He will ask me "Why weren't you Lindsay? They need Lindsay. I needed you to be Lindsay"

and that my friends, is very empowering spoken from the Big Guy. :)




Wednesday, October 10, 2012

life keeps moving


i showed my hairdresser a picture and said I want THIS, but longer. don't think she heard the "longer" part. so now I have a little stub for a ponytail :) 


 the deer are getting out of control. this is a typical morning when i walk out the door. oh hey little buddies. 


fall is in the air! which means lots of fun stuff in the Target Dollar section ;) much to Drew's delight. :)

more Halloween decorations. oh wait. Nope. that is a REAL spider. vomit. 


don't knock the cola in the crockpot with the pot roast till you rock it. delishhhhhh. 


and just like that it's almost the MIDDLE of October :)

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

10/9

this exact day one year ago I was minding my own business, carving my pumpkin when I pulled out something more than pumpkin seeds and guts...





this day last year this really cute boy gave me this ring and promised me forever. 

oh what a difference a year makes.  :)



Monday, October 8, 2012

julee and preslee


sigh. happy monday.

i have a heavy heart for the Turner family this weekend.

I mean yeah it's weird. I have never met these people, never even been to Arkansas but I have read Julee's blog for a few years (through her struggles with infertility) and have read about her daily life with her husband matt (who is a news anchor in AR) and their 10 month old daughter, Preslee.

This weekend Matt was killed in a car accident and leaves behind Julee and 10 month old Preslee. They had just moved to be closer to family.

for those of you who know me, ya'all know I am PETRIFIED of anything death related, get physically ILL when I think about losing a loved one and commonly have breakdowns about one of my parents dying.

I start to panic and almost hallucinate when I think about something in my life passing away, and before I know it I have effectively started a panic attack.

The love that Julee and her friends/family have for Jesus has done something to me.

While I don't even know this family and I still burst into tears on Sunday morning, I have this weird calm about me when I think about the Julee and her sweet baby girl in the coming years.

While I can't even BEGIN to fathom how Julee is feeling, she posted this today and I was amazed at her ability to see beyond the grief and despite how hard it is, KNOW that the Lord has a plan, as hard as that may seem at the time.




i mean really. a couple tries and tries and tries to have a baby and their precious daughter, who is the absolute love of their life, only got to spend 10 months with her daddy on this earth? that's a hard one to fathom.

I feel like Jesus likes to talk to me in code a lot of the time. Sometimes I just can't figure out what his big picture is, what exactly he wants me to do.

But then there's times like this, he makes it rather clear and simple for us.

Thanks Julee, I am praying SO hard for you, and thank you for teaching me about His plan, in comparison to ours.


you give and take away, you give and take away,
my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Saturday, October 6, 2012

cupcake wars

while i LOVE the big tiered wedding cake tradition, i just figured it would be easier and cheaper to do cupcakes. i still wanted drew and i to have something to cut, so we decided to go with cupcakes AND a little cake. 

i LOVED the little cake, but was kind of bummed that I had two different bakeries make the cake and the cupcakes. you can sooo tell they don't really match. whooops. 

we went cupcake tasting and it was SO fun. we had like 12 different flavor combos and then had a few months to pick our choices. 

since i wanted them all frosted with vanilla frosting so they could be dyed pink, I didn't really have as many cupcake flavors as I would have liked. 

so i went with vanilla, chocolate, strawberry lemonade and raspberry truffle. (the baker ran out of one of these, so she last minuted added some banana. BANANA?? had i known this BEFORE the wedding, we may have had a bridezilla moment. of ALL the flavors to add to an EVENING wedding? BANANA?)

i digress. 

well kind of. I used Katie Cupcakes for my cupcakes who is going to be featured in the season premier of CUPCAKE WARS on Sunday!!!!!!

how fun is that?!?!?!

Katie is bring her assistant Kelsey, who was sooo helpful to us during this process. 





so while I may not have been in LOVE with our desserts, they turned out and our guests seemed to like them :) 
and that's what matters right?
even though we did have LOTS of banana cupcakes left over. wonder why...

katie, if you are reading this. please don't make any banana cupcakes for Cupcake Wars. ;) good luck girls!!!!!!!

Friday, October 5, 2012

friday night married life

it's Friday night, 

drew and i hit up Costco (horrible idea. first: Costco in general. second: costco on a friday night. third: costco on a Canadian holiday. fourth: costco on THANKSGIVING. ahhh. you did NOT want to get in the way of those 5 dollar pumpkin pies. let me tell you.)

we survived and managed to make it out alive with our toilet paper and paper towels and jalapeno dip. oh, the necessities of life, right?

after we had those essentials, we each got to buy one "fun" thing.

drew?

these PlayStation3 headphones so he can talk to Marcus without having to use my iphone headphones. and imagine this, they block out outside noise. great. for the price of these things, they should whisper the winning lottery ticket numbers to you or something. or predict the stock market.

and who sold them to us? a cute girl whose name tag said, "gaming specialist." ummmm... i had to pull drew out of there. ;) 

so drew had his "fun" thing, so it was my turn.

something is MAJORLY wrong with this picture. 


looks like we each will have a new hobby this fall. ;) 

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

where is this going?

when i pulled into the driveway tonight, it didn't look like anyone was home. the porch lights weren't on and it looked dark inside.

but drew's truck was there, so i figured he was inside.

the door was locked. hmm.. maybe he was on a run?

walked in the backdoor to this...


then found these...


and then this...


what was my hubby doing?

--> ??


just sitting on the couch in the pitch black, with his iphone headphones in, trashtalking while playing Marcus in a heated game of Madden on his playstation. 

oh, boys, :) 


Monday, October 1, 2012

beautiful

happy october everyone! fall is on it's way here. drew took this picture at Boulevard Park this weekend. 

beautiful, huh?

reminds me of how while God sees the beauty in brokenness and pain and hurt, he also loves when things are beautiful. like picture perfect, right out of a fairytale gorgeous.

i have been having a hard couple weeks. just feeling a little blah and wondering about what I am meant to do in this big scary world of ours.

i have a job, i have a cute little roof over my head, food on the table, my husband has a job and we can afford to go out to eat and go to the movies. :) our families are healthy, our friends are happy and things are good.

i'm doing more than okay, and i shouldn't complain.

i feel like God has bigger more pressing issues to deal with then hearing me pray about potential career changes (when I already HAVE a job and so many people don't), and what Drew and I's next life "move" is, (when we ALREADY have a great little life).

i heard this song this weekend and I burst into tears. just the ZEST that they sing with and the words made me realize that it's okay to ask for God to do big things, to move mountains, even when the valley's i'm facing aren't that really that deep in the grand scheme of things.

::My God's not dead
 he's surely alive
he's living on the inside, 
roaring like a lion ::

:) ohh Newsboys, thanks for reminding me that God isn't some passive entity that just makes things comfortable enough for me. he's roaring like a lion, and i need to let that roaring shine through me. :) 

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Monday, October 29, 2012

as of late:

some things I have been loving these last few days in October:

reminiscing about getting engaged to this hottie LAST october. and so0o happy for all my friends who have gotten engaged recently. this seems like a popular time of year to pop the question :)




pumpkin cupcakes. (umm... they did NOT turn out like the pinterest ones? story of my life. :)


 cozy breakfasts. 
I have never been a big breakfast eater on the weekends. I like to stick to my weekly staples of oatmeal or kashi or something. (cuz heaven forbid we know what happens when I strive off of my "plan")
oh man. not any longer. the waffle maker is one of the best things in the entire world.  



so maybe they were supposed to be "salted caramel bars."

welp. I forgot the salt. 

soooo caramel bars anyone?

SOOOOOOO rich but seriously DELICIOUS!!!!

perhaps due to the pound of butter or heavy whipping cream? you must make them. 

and since we seem to be on the food theme, let's end it with another recipe, shall we? 

we had my parents over for din last week and we made pulled pork sandwiches. 

in the crock pot. 

put the pork tenderloin in the crockpot. 
pour over a can of rootbeer.
set on low for six hours. 

shred pork and mix in BBQ sauce. 

and then eat your pulled pork sandwich for dinner. 
and a caramel bar for dessert.
and then a cupcake for a midnight snack because it is taunting you. 
and then lie to the cute guy you got engaged to last year when he asks if you ate that cupcake in bed.

hehe. ;) 

Sunday, October 28, 2012

we all think that we should have a specific hand of cards that we were dealt.

Maybe a full house, or a flush or whatever gets lots of points in poker?

One card might be an amazing, fulfilling career that ALSO brings home major bacon. Another card? A smoking hot husband/wife and gorgeous, talented, water-polo playing children. You should own a house, have it furnished like Pottery Barn in every room, and go to Hawaii for vacation once a year, with every third year being a family trip to Italy. 

that's what your "supposed" to have.

By 18, you have a nice car, have gotten into the best sorority and have daddy's credit card. 

25? The career of your dreams, a well-to-do boyfriend who wants to take you ring shopping. 

Late twenties? Buy that house, that double stroller and everything else that we "should" have. 

I believe in God. I try to live a life that honors him, so God should give me that perfect hand of cards that society and He says I should have. Right? Right?????

At church we had an awesome talk about how there comes a point in our lives when we have to come to terms with the ACTUAL hand God dealt us.

Not the hand we THINK we deserve or that our friends think we have.

If you are anything like me, you are missing a couple of those key cards. Actually... I would bet money that most of us don't have that royal flush. 

and for the first time in my ENTIRE life, I think I am starting to realize that's okay.

 and a crucial step of being okay with what God gave us? Accepting what he didn't. 

:) 

Saturday, October 27, 2012

mail time

 when you come in the back door we have a long counter space with cabinets under it. I suppose kinda like an entry way? even though that area is also the dining room/part of the laundry room.

this place QUICKLY became a catch-all for keys, groceries, purses, wallets... DQ blizzard cups... you get the picture... :)

which is all fine and dandy...

but then add to that pile all the junk mail and bills and it was really stressing me out. It was like the first thing you see when you come in the back door and it always just immediately agitated me when I walked in the door, reminding me of bills to pay etc.

i was doing some research about cute entry ways, and realized that while I love our little house, there was no way to make this area SUPER cute, so I just decided to go with practical.


some cute inspiration from pinterest.



love these. but considering we don't have kids and our don't live in our "home" home, I didn't want to spend too much time and money. 

so i decided to roll with this type of idea. 


so i kinda tried. 

then added two of our wedding centerpiece boxes to hold bills to pay and then random mail. 

i started by meal planning for the week on the chalk board. 

BUUUUUT, the chalk will NOT ERASE! like seriously. there are 5 weeks of Monday night dinners peeking through on this silly board. (and we tend to have tacos a lot on Mondays apparently?)

so for the meantime, I have tried to cover it up with some stickable accessories. 

still a work in progress, buuuut it is SO nice to have a place or our mail. 

still working on the calendar part and where to write our weekly schedule. any ideas??!







Wednesday, October 24, 2012

perspective

i am sooo cozy right now.

i woke up early with drew, watched some good ole ESPN (eye roll) and then when he left for work I changed the channel to the news. I am curled up in my robe and my fuzzy blanket in front of the fire. I have been surfing pinterest and slowly eating my breakfast.

i really should get in the shower. i really should go make our bed. i really should unload the dishwasher.  but i don't wanna.

i don't wanna go to work today. i just want to sit in front of the fire and eat my salted caramel bars (i'll post that recipe soon) and cherry coke and watch The Office on-demand all day. is that really that much to ask for? i sure don't think so.

i have felt this way all week pretty much. i can blame the change in weather and the early darkness. :(

i was talking to a client at work yesterday and asked her if she had to go back to work after she left her appointment. She said she didn't and I replied with something like, "really? that's nice! i'm jealous!"

her response to my remark?

"it's not nice if you don't have a job to go back to."

whooops.

once again, foot in mouth Lindsay. I felt my face turn bright red and I just felt sooo selfish and unappreciative of all that I have.

I sure bet I would feel different about hopping in the shower and getting ready for work if I didn't have money in my bank account.

so as much as I want to curl up on the couch and tune into the Today show, I am going to get up and get ready for the day. Not only that, but try to with a smile on my face. :)

here goes nothing. :)


Monday, October 22, 2012

“To have faith in Christ means, of course, trying to do all that He says. 

There would be no sense in saying you trusted a person if you would not take his advice. Thus if you have really handed yourself over to Him, it must follow that you are trying to obey Him. 

But trying in a new way, a less worried way. 

Not doing these things in order to be saved, but because He has begun to save you already. 

Not hoping to get to Heaven as a reward for your actions, but inevitably wanting to act in a certain way because a first faint gleam of Heaven is already inside you.” 


 C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity


Sunday, October 21, 2012


this weekend went way too fast. :(


we had our first little family "party" aka my dad and sister came over while my mom was grocery shopping to watch some of the Husky game. i think we need more chairs... and maybe a lamp?

the precious Mowry family invited us to go to the pumpkin patch with them.

ummm gorgeous family award or what?





there were sooooo many cute kiddos at hte pumpkin patch but this little one was by far the cutest ;)



i am a little afraid. i left for the pumpkin patch with hair like this...



and apparently it poofed like this???? AHHHHH. not so sure about my short hair yet. sooo many layers and i think if it gets wind blowed it turns into a poof-ball!!!!!!! helllooooo middle school?

helppppp


ohh and we ran into sister and T at the pumpkin patch :) so happy they came up from seattle for the weekend. 



end the weekend with a workout and a trip to the mexican restaurant for dinna?

bring it on monday. :)

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

we survived

so don't worry, this blog will not be a place where I air out all of our "dirty laundry" but I also want to be real and this is a part of my life :)

i think drew and i had our first "married" fight. 

i think it was about how the TV is dedicated to football thursday night, all day saturday, all day sunday and monday. :)

is it really that much to ask to go to the pumpkin patch?

then it turned into how drew cooks a lot of the time and i don't like to wash dishes. wet food in the drain reaaaaaalllly grosses me out. so sue me :) 

so maybe drew cooks a lot? he associates that with me being a bad cook. ruuuuude :) 
(remember this is my blog, i can tell my side of the story ;)

we had a reallllllly fun weekend, but were both a little tired yesterday aka crabby. 

so i got home from work, drew was already home and we didn't just went about our business not necessarily speaking to each other. 

juvenile, i know. but sometimes that's just how things work out. :)

i had said i was going to cook waffles and bacon for dinner so I started cooking and drew came in and asked if  i wanted any help. 

clearly, i said NO.

i made our Belgian waffles, drew started flipping the bacon and i swooped in and said, "I SAID I DIDN'T NEED HELP."

so off he went to eat his breakfast for dinner.

I ate mine in the dining room, and then before long I notice the house is getting a little foggy, almost hazy. 

and man, oh man did it smell like bacon. 

so i open up the doors, turn the fan on and deal with the bacon grease. 

Drew comes into the kitchen and says, "did you forget to turn off the stove after the bacon was done?"

"NO!" I snapped. "Of course I didn't."

he has a little smile on his face. 

because clearly that is EXACTLY what i did to almost set the house on fire, but yet I am still denying it. 

i look at him again with my "serious face" on, and he still has that cute little smirk on his face. 

how else can i explain that i almost burnt down our house?

as hard as I am trying to keep a straight face, I start smiling. 

and then giggling. 

and then i cannot. stop. laughing. 

so that ended our little "two hour of not-talking thing"

whatever it takes, right?


i was talking to some coworkers and they were talking about how cute it was that we had our first married fight. 

then they started talking about how important it is to have that fight. to learn how to fight. to learn how to make up. 

i had never even thought of that. 

learn how to fight?

The silent-treatment used to be my ultimate fighting method of choice. with my parents, with boyfriends, didn't matter. :) silent treatment was the way to go.

drew and i used to fight like that too, when we were dating. see who caved first. who gave in. 

now? i am realizing it's not about "giving in."

so yeah maybe the first hour of not talking and passing silently in the hallway was fun, i slowly started to realize there was no point. 

it's not about who "wins" the fight.

it's just a bummer it almost took the house burning down to realize it :)

andddd we may or may not have had a good laugh when we woke up this morning and the house STILL smelt like bacon. oooops. :) 

Monday, October 15, 2012

Sunday, October 14, 2012

just another manic monday?

i just wish i could be a wedding photographer and spend my weekends gallivanting around capturing pretty people in pretty places doing special things. 

please?



another example of a godly woman who always wondered who her mr. right would be.

ten months ago these two started dating and look what happened today :)
so excited for the future Mr. and Mrs :) 


do you ever feel like you get punished come Sunday night if you had a REALLY fun weekend?
:( I do.

you know it's going to be a fun Monday when you have to pack all these bags to take out the door at 7AM. :)



i also think i used to think the busier I was, the less time I would have to feel sad. ya know what? i am realizing that is not quite true. busy is good, but i think its time to reevaluate how I am spending all my time so I am not exhauuusstteeeddd when I come home to my cute hubs at night. 


It is not enough to be busy. So are the ants. The question is: What are we busy about? ~ Henry David Thoreau

Thursday, October 11, 2012

Not Moses



so for the first few weeks of being a Mrs., I felt like to be a good wife I had to be around Drew all the time. Like if he was in the living room watching TV, I had to be in the living room too. while yes, it is nice to be in each other's presence and such, I am also realizing that I can still go in a different room, cozy up with a blanket and a book and not have to be observing his every move. :)

so this new found hobby of mine (okay well that makes it sound like my new hobby is being in a different room than Drew, but you get my drift) has got me reading like books are going out of style. which is weird? does that saying still count if you read on your ipad? but anways.

my current book? Mended by Angie Smith. I love her, i love her, i love her. GO GET THIS BOOK.

this story from her book has just been on my heart all week.

Angie was on a roadtrip with her family, and started reading Chasing Francis: A Pilgrim Tale out loud to her husband. this is what she read:

"Do you know the story of Rabbi Zusya?" he asked.
"He was a Chasidic master who lived in the 1700's. 
One day he said, "When I get to the heavenly court,
  God will not ask me, Why weren't you Moses?"
Rather he will ask me, "Why were you not Zusya?"

The man speaking let that thought hang in the air for a moment, then continued.

"Churches should be places where people come to hear the
story of God and to tell their own. That's how we find out
how the two relate. Tell your story with all of its shadows
and fog, so people can understand their own. They want a 
leader who's authentic, someone trying to figure out how to
follow the Lord Jesus in the joy and wreckage of life.
They need you, not Moses, " he said.

Wow.

They need you.


not that perfect lady who can run twice as fast as you on the treadmill at the gym and clearly has NO problem limiting her frozen yogurt after dinner. Not her, ME. me with my "love chub" aka the lovely weight that has climbed onto my hips since getting married. Me and my slooowww pace on the treadmill.
Me.

He will ask me "Why weren't you Lindsay? They need Lindsay. I needed you to be Lindsay"

and that my friends, is very empowering spoken from the Big Guy. :)




Wednesday, October 10, 2012

life keeps moving


i showed my hairdresser a picture and said I want THIS, but longer. don't think she heard the "longer" part. so now I have a little stub for a ponytail :) 


 the deer are getting out of control. this is a typical morning when i walk out the door. oh hey little buddies. 


fall is in the air! which means lots of fun stuff in the Target Dollar section ;) much to Drew's delight. :)

more Halloween decorations. oh wait. Nope. that is a REAL spider. vomit. 


don't knock the cola in the crockpot with the pot roast till you rock it. delishhhhhh. 


and just like that it's almost the MIDDLE of October :)

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

10/9

this exact day one year ago I was minding my own business, carving my pumpkin when I pulled out something more than pumpkin seeds and guts...





this day last year this really cute boy gave me this ring and promised me forever. 

oh what a difference a year makes.  :)



Monday, October 8, 2012

julee and preslee


sigh. happy monday.

i have a heavy heart for the Turner family this weekend.

I mean yeah it's weird. I have never met these people, never even been to Arkansas but I have read Julee's blog for a few years (through her struggles with infertility) and have read about her daily life with her husband matt (who is a news anchor in AR) and their 10 month old daughter, Preslee.

This weekend Matt was killed in a car accident and leaves behind Julee and 10 month old Preslee. They had just moved to be closer to family.

for those of you who know me, ya'all know I am PETRIFIED of anything death related, get physically ILL when I think about losing a loved one and commonly have breakdowns about one of my parents dying.

I start to panic and almost hallucinate when I think about something in my life passing away, and before I know it I have effectively started a panic attack.

The love that Julee and her friends/family have for Jesus has done something to me.

While I don't even know this family and I still burst into tears on Sunday morning, I have this weird calm about me when I think about the Julee and her sweet baby girl in the coming years.

While I can't even BEGIN to fathom how Julee is feeling, she posted this today and I was amazed at her ability to see beyond the grief and despite how hard it is, KNOW that the Lord has a plan, as hard as that may seem at the time.




i mean really. a couple tries and tries and tries to have a baby and their precious daughter, who is the absolute love of their life, only got to spend 10 months with her daddy on this earth? that's a hard one to fathom.

I feel like Jesus likes to talk to me in code a lot of the time. Sometimes I just can't figure out what his big picture is, what exactly he wants me to do.

But then there's times like this, he makes it rather clear and simple for us.

Thanks Julee, I am praying SO hard for you, and thank you for teaching me about His plan, in comparison to ours.


you give and take away, you give and take away,
my heart will choose to say, Lord blessed be your name.

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Saturday, October 6, 2012

cupcake wars

while i LOVE the big tiered wedding cake tradition, i just figured it would be easier and cheaper to do cupcakes. i still wanted drew and i to have something to cut, so we decided to go with cupcakes AND a little cake. 

i LOVED the little cake, but was kind of bummed that I had two different bakeries make the cake and the cupcakes. you can sooo tell they don't really match. whooops. 

we went cupcake tasting and it was SO fun. we had like 12 different flavor combos and then had a few months to pick our choices. 

since i wanted them all frosted with vanilla frosting so they could be dyed pink, I didn't really have as many cupcake flavors as I would have liked. 

so i went with vanilla, chocolate, strawberry lemonade and raspberry truffle. (the baker ran out of one of these, so she last minuted added some banana. BANANA?? had i known this BEFORE the wedding, we may have had a bridezilla moment. of ALL the flavors to add to an EVENING wedding? BANANA?)

i digress. 

well kind of. I used Katie Cupcakes for my cupcakes who is going to be featured in the season premier of CUPCAKE WARS on Sunday!!!!!!

how fun is that?!?!?!

Katie is bring her assistant Kelsey, who was sooo helpful to us during this process. 





so while I may not have been in LOVE with our desserts, they turned out and our guests seemed to like them :) 
and that's what matters right?
even though we did have LOTS of banana cupcakes left over. wonder why...

katie, if you are reading this. please don't make any banana cupcakes for Cupcake Wars. ;) good luck girls!!!!!!!

Friday, October 5, 2012

friday night married life

it's Friday night, 

drew and i hit up Costco (horrible idea. first: Costco in general. second: costco on a friday night. third: costco on a Canadian holiday. fourth: costco on THANKSGIVING. ahhh. you did NOT want to get in the way of those 5 dollar pumpkin pies. let me tell you.)

we survived and managed to make it out alive with our toilet paper and paper towels and jalapeno dip. oh, the necessities of life, right?

after we had those essentials, we each got to buy one "fun" thing.

drew?

these PlayStation3 headphones so he can talk to Marcus without having to use my iphone headphones. and imagine this, they block out outside noise. great. for the price of these things, they should whisper the winning lottery ticket numbers to you or something. or predict the stock market.

and who sold them to us? a cute girl whose name tag said, "gaming specialist." ummmm... i had to pull drew out of there. ;) 

so drew had his "fun" thing, so it was my turn.

something is MAJORLY wrong with this picture. 


looks like we each will have a new hobby this fall. ;) 

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

where is this going?

when i pulled into the driveway tonight, it didn't look like anyone was home. the porch lights weren't on and it looked dark inside.

but drew's truck was there, so i figured he was inside.

the door was locked. hmm.. maybe he was on a run?

walked in the backdoor to this...


then found these...


and then this...


what was my hubby doing?

--> ??


just sitting on the couch in the pitch black, with his iphone headphones in, trashtalking while playing Marcus in a heated game of Madden on his playstation. 

oh, boys, :) 


Monday, October 1, 2012

beautiful

happy october everyone! fall is on it's way here. drew took this picture at Boulevard Park this weekend. 

beautiful, huh?

reminds me of how while God sees the beauty in brokenness and pain and hurt, he also loves when things are beautiful. like picture perfect, right out of a fairytale gorgeous.

i have been having a hard couple weeks. just feeling a little blah and wondering about what I am meant to do in this big scary world of ours.

i have a job, i have a cute little roof over my head, food on the table, my husband has a job and we can afford to go out to eat and go to the movies. :) our families are healthy, our friends are happy and things are good.

i'm doing more than okay, and i shouldn't complain.

i feel like God has bigger more pressing issues to deal with then hearing me pray about potential career changes (when I already HAVE a job and so many people don't), and what Drew and I's next life "move" is, (when we ALREADY have a great little life).

i heard this song this weekend and I burst into tears. just the ZEST that they sing with and the words made me realize that it's okay to ask for God to do big things, to move mountains, even when the valley's i'm facing aren't that really that deep in the grand scheme of things.

::My God's not dead
 he's surely alive
he's living on the inside, 
roaring like a lion ::

:) ohh Newsboys, thanks for reminding me that God isn't some passive entity that just makes things comfortable enough for me. he's roaring like a lion, and i need to let that roaring shine through me. :)