Whatcha Weigh Monday?

okay. soooooo.... yes. in my life (more or less the last 6-7 years) I have developed some unhealthy ideas, concepts, thoughts about eating.

I go from food being my BFF to absolutely despising every ounce of every calorie that exists.

with a nutritionist, psychologist and lots of love, I have made AMAZING progress
and the last few months I was in SUCH a great place with food. Moderation, not obsessing, healthy level of working out.

then st. paddy's day rolled around, added in with wedding stress and that lovely time of the month and I backtracked a bit.

soooo. this morning at weigh-in wasn't pretty.

let's just say it was a gain, and I have 15 pounds to lose before August.

:) It's like all week I was rebelling against when I knew.

I don't want to have an unhealthy relationship with food, but I also know myself.

I can do it, I have made TONS of progress.

It's just a liiiiiiiiiitle difficult to find the starting motivation sometimes.

Instead of saying I want to lose x amount of pounds by the wedding (which gives me anxiety and makes me hungry), I broke it into smaller chunks.

I made a calendar with pictures of where we are going on our honeymoon (more on that later ;) along with some inspiring wedding dress photos.

The point of this?

to see OVERALL how one little treat here or there or a big night out doesn't need to derail the train. There are LOTS of little days left, and as long as my actions are 80% healthy, I don't need to sweat about the other 20%.

i also went through the next few months and acknowledged which days will be difficult (Easter, my bridal shower etc.) to remind myself I can enjoy those days, and not let it affect the entire calendar.

I also work off the momentum from my success (good and bad thing)! I made this cute little display. The jar to the left has 15 sparkly pink rocks. (the pounds I want to lose). Every time I lose one, I get to move it over into the other container. :) Visual reminder everrryyyy day :)

and not to mention the good ole fashioned motivation. The new bikini.

HOW CUTE IS THIS?

I love how it is simple, yet the ruffles are girly and add a little something something.

so yeah. wedding = motivation.

and i am motivated. and to do it in a HEALTHY way. :)

here goes :)

(yep, once again :) but for reals this time :)