"good"

what a weekend.

i have been happy the last few months.

i think its a combination of settling into married life, liking my job, eating healthy foods and THE SUNSHINE STARTING TO COME.

i also thing it's something else though.

I used to drive myself crazy trying to find the hidden, deep meaning of why God would let something bad happen. Especially to me.

I didn't get that job? 

God says all He does it good, so that must have been for a reason. 

Drew and I got in a huge fight and I couldn't sleep for two nights?

God says all He does is good, so that must have been for a reason. 

I would try and figure out what God was trying to teach me from every single little thing.

Not saying this is bad, I just think I over-analyzed lots of things, which can make a person feel crazzzyyyyy and very anxious. (story of my life ;)

I heard it put a different way recently, that has totally calmed my anxious heart :)

"You make all things work together for my good"

I don't have to freak out about what specific LESSON God had in mind for me when I burnt the pizza that I was making for dinner.

Yep. Not getting into grad school sucks.  I can put all sorts of spin on it and "blah blah, i didn't get in because there is a different program that is a better fit for me?" sure maybe. I didn't get in because God is testing my willingness to listen to Him. Very possible. 

Getting that letter that says I didn't get in sucked. anyway you dice it. but this song verse makes me realize that I don't have to figure out God's reasoning behind it RIGHT now. Or tomorrow, or next month. I don't have to search and search until I come up with what went wrong. 

That bad thing that happened? It can be bad. I don't nessecarily have to consider it good, cuz to be honest? It wasn't really all that good. 

What He does promise?

He will make it work together for my good. Woven with something else, covered in that opportunity and mixed with that opportunity. 

so relieving to me. it doesn't have to be all decoded and figured out now. It will be, in His time ;)

In the END, it will be good.